Man, I just realized that I wrote a blog and it didn't get posted last week - argh!

oh well - I can't even remember what it's about - but here I am again - saturday morning - vegging out - well not really - I'm in a rush to write and get ready - gotta visit my parents and then run some errands and then we're off to apple picking!

yeah - I'm excited about this apple picking event - and I'm glad I'll be able to spend some time with my friends - I feel like I haven't seen them or talked to them in ages! =( That makes me kinda sad.

you know - i'm totally disappointed at his moment - at myself - and how I've grown too comfortable with my life that I'm lazy and I don't seek to know God more. Why is it that I am content like this? I feel like God needs to light a fire under my butt - to awaken my soul again. I need God.... but yet I don't long for more of him - I want to ... but my brain gets in the way and tells my all the things that I need to do - - once again - i must decide between what is necessary and what is unnecessary - and God is a MUST - I must put him first.

i hope that as Christian brothers and sisters - we CAN encourage each other and not just sit around and hang out all the time! sorry to say it - but I'm tired of sitting around and hoping that someone will be encouraging me in the faith - i guess I need to start encouraging others - I need God - I need others - I need to grow in my faith once again to make it through my days.... to feel satisfied in Christ.... to feel loved and to feel at peace....

ok - enough of my morning ramblings.... I will try to memorize scripture today - i must get ready before ja gets upset at me.

love
jkoahn