Well, everyone.... at least only those who check this sill page every so often.... i'm writing again.

=) I must say that I am happy that people actually want to know about my life and for that - I am blessed - so to all of you who read this - thanks. =)

well... it is the new year and I've made some new resolutions... but perhaps they are not resolutions - I'd like to call them realizations... yeah..

I've realized that I am a sinner and I fall short on so many different levels. I lack confidence although I seem so confident on the outside - it's all a facade. I need Christ in my life - active and moving - in order to do anything good. I need to trust in Him and not on my little wimpy efforts to do anything and everything in life.

I've realized that I am becoming too comfortable with my job. I don't love teaching when I'm not kept accountable or challenged. When I am overwhelmed it doesn't make me word harder it makes me feel even more like I can't do it. I need to give my job to Christ and pray for his help and guidance... i hope he leads me to a new job in Westchester.

I've realized that in order to be a good friend I need to pray for them more regularly and I need to talk to them more often. Why am I soo selfish? Why do I live in my own bubble? Because I don't see people the way Christ sees them - I look through my own clouded vision.

I've realized that our church is growing and changing and I need to help foster that and not put an end to it - I need to remove me from the picture and look at the bigger picture, God's picture - what is He doing? What does He want us to do? How can we be a community and not so individualistic? We can start by eating more together - but not only eating food but eating the Word of God as well.

I've realized that I love reading the Word and I miss it. I didn't realize I missed it so much until the other night at J's home for bible study. I want to make more time to know Jesus more and more.

I've realized how fun and good it is to be with brothers and sisters and to enjoy old friends too... I am so thankful for NHF and the friends we have - I pray that God will use our friendships to build stronger workers for His kingdom and for His glory. I am so happy to be a part and to watch the little ones grow. It is exciting and I can't wait to see how God uses the little ones to teach all of us about His love. I pray for the little ones to be healthy and strong and most of all - to love...

This week should be interesting as I head back to work - I pray for a new outlook - one that desires to do my best for His glory and not my own. I pray for a new heart - and new eyes - to see as Christ sees... I pray for new words - not my own - so that I may speak truth and kind words to others...

Hopefully your prayers are more like mine - then maybe - just maybe we can live in a more peaceful world. =)

cheesy - i know - i'm sorry. but it's true.

jkoahn