Here's what I'm thinking...

I want to be a person with a vision, a mission and a passion.
I heard that a long time ago at some retreat. I think I have lost sight of what that meant to me then - but I think about it now... and wonder... what is it a vision for? my life? my relationships? my friendships? my family? my church? praise team? I guess - everything.

I want a mission - what is it that I am to accomplish in this lifetime? What am I to do?

I want passion - an undying desire to do whatever it is that I need to do. An excitement. An enthusiasm. Joy. Freedom.

So... what is it? What is my purpose? To glorify God. That's what I've been told forever. So then I have to question myself... Am I glorifying God? Are my words pleasing to HIM - certainly not... are my actions pleasing to Him - maybe sometimes but most of the time - no. So - what good am I? I am not - at least not by my own merit - I am in need of God and I am living by the grace of God everyday. I am relying on Him for strength to be a better person - a considerate person, a selfless person.... and I've got a long way to go.

Do all people wonder about these things -as I do?

ttyl
jkoahn

well, here's another try..

the last time I was on here - my computer froze and I lost my blog.. =(

So I doubt I'll lose anything this time b/c JA bought this new connector thing for the computer. I think he's explained what it is to me a thousand times - but I still don't get it - all I know is that it makes everything work and not freeze on me! =)

Anyway - here are some thoughts for today!

I've sent out my resume - so now I"m just waiting - we don't have an answering machine - so we're out to get one tomorrow so that I can get responses from possible school districts. I just don't like the fact that I have no idea if anyone is ever going to read my resume... oh well - it's in His hands - so all I have to do is wait and trust in Him.

What else - here's another thought - no matter how old a person is - when he/she is sick - all he/she wants is sympathy. Why is it so difficult to give sympathy to another? Why is it so hard to figure out the right words to say? What can truly be said to make anyone feel better? Isn't it difficult for each person? What makes this worse is that people who love each other sometimes find themselves being more selfish than selfless... that's the problem - they are not considering one another.... back to that powerful message.... just consider one another...

what else is new? I just put some cookies in the oven - they're for my mom and dad - hopefully it will brighten their lives or at least their evenings...

Tomorrow night - JA and I will be having a bunch of friends over to welcome/rewelcome an old friend...
and I have to pay my debt - make a Korean dinner... I'm happy to do it... truly - hee hee =)

well - gotta get the cookies in the oven. =)

jkoahn